I have not been aroused with my BF for a long time now. I wonder why? Even sometimes when I am all alone, I had to look at naked guys photos or watch a porn on my PC to really get me horny so that I could masturbate. Otherwise I don't feel a thing "down there" and masturbation was just to fill up some stupid quota of not having to cum for a very long time.
I am not sure if this is normal for a 39 years old guy like me but I feel a bit unnatural about it. It is almost like having a menopause for women. Am I tired of my younger-aged BF and the fact that he is not my type at all? Or am I tired of sex altogether considering that I am aging?
One thing for sure though, lately I have been having the needs to be alone, away from everyone and to just sleep for twelve hours from 7pm to7am with an excuse that I was mentally tired but actually to escape from the world.
I am not excited to live anymore or looking forward for the morning to come. I am more looking forward to the end of the day so that I could go home and sleep the whole night.
I don't have the answers to my problems but I sure have a lot of clues to play with and find out. But still no one can tell what is wrong me for the ultimate full stop answer.
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